I was so upset and utterly devastated that my whole night's sleep was ruined as I replayed my emotions of that evening over and over again in my head. I kept questioning if I had done the right thing, if I had made unnecessary enemies or hurt other people's feelings by what I had said. Each time I had to reassure myself that what I did needed to be done once and for all because one can only endure so much.
I hate when people take advantage of me and take me for granted. I endured that a while ago with some people but I told myself enough is enough. I will never let people walk over me and use me. However, my actions prove otherwise as I still fall back into the same patterns after apologies are made.
I hate letting things hang over my head and prefer allowing bygones be bygones but I am pissed when people take for granted the fact that I forgive and forget easily. Or at least for the most part I do.
So with all apologies in line, I am left with the age old question of whether I should let this one go as well or be a complete b**** and hold a grudge. I hate having a conscience! I wish I could be just as inconsiderate but I give credit to my mother for teaching me otherwise and teaching me to try always to see the good in others.
I guess bygones are easier to deal with than grudges.
